Hello, Family.
I hope all of you are well on this hot and beautiful 'high' summer day.
I am posting this, today, because I have come to a sad realization. I have just been fooling myself. I have wanted to believe that I have been a welcome part of this Family, and, to some of the blogger Family members, I have. I am thankful and grateful to those few. (You dear ladies know who you are.) (I understand that many are busy with their own lives, yet many of them take the time to acknowledge other sister's comments. Why not mine? What have I done to offend them? I really want to know. In fact, I feel I have a right to know, so please, won't some of you tell me?)
I know I am still a relative newcomer and outsider to many of the Family, but I also know I love Our Charming Prince as much as anyone else who posts these blogs. And, I also know that I am a BYJ Family member in good standing. All I had to do to achieve that status was to sign up as a Family member on The BYJ Official site, because he welcomes and loves everyone; no matter who they are or their country of origin. (The concept is, after all, "Humane Living", isn't it? To truly try to love everyone in the world.)
It just saddens me to know I have, pretty much, with few exceptions, been banging my head against a wall, here, hoping for acceptance. The thing is, I am here to stay, for as long as this is the direction in which my life takes me. From my viewpoint, that will be a long time. Acceptance is good, and desirable, but not always given. Still, I have learned a valuable lesson from the great Martin Luther, who founded the Lutheran Church. When he was shunned and ridiculed by his peers, he wrote:
"They drew a circle and shut me out;
Heretic, rebel; a thing to flout.
But, love and I had the wit to win,
We drew a circle, and took them in."
So, you see, I will still continue to love all of the BaeFamily, all around the world; regardless of how they see me, or what they think of me. (I don't have to know them personally; I just have to believe the same way as Our Yong Joon-ssi.) I am sorry if this offends anyone, but I must speak my mind, here. And, Josephine, dear, before you or Tamar say anything, in your direct, but always refreshing and always welcome manner, thank you, both, and thanks to the other few sisters for showing me your kindness and sisterly friendship. It is very much appreciated.
I could say more, but I won't. I would just like, please, for the sisters to read this, and think about what I've said. (I know I don't post comments on all of the sister's sites. Please forgive me if this fact has offended any of you bloggers. It isn't because I don't love you; it is because you often blog about topics which don't interest me. That is just my preference, and has nothing to do with any of you, personally. Your tastes in entertainment, and celebrities are fine with me. Just, please understand if I don't share them. It is great that you all like the singers and actors that you do like. I say, more power to you. I have my other favorite celebrities as well. I am a huge Ko Yu-Jin fan, though I doubt there are many of those here, besides me. That's fine, too. I like reading the different postings about celebrities besides Our Charming Prince; although the ones about him are the most special to me. Those blog posts have helped me gain a greater appreciation for all of the talented Asian celebrities out there whom I have not yet discovered. (A special 'thank you' to all of the Kim Hyun Joong fans.) Whoever you sisters like and admire, I will be like I told sister bb; be yourselves and like whom and what you like, and I will cheer and applaud you. And I will say 'you go, girl!")
Again, a special, heartfelt thank you to the sisters who have taken me into their hearts as a member of this dear Family that means as much to me as my own flesh and blood family, or any of my other friends. Take care, and please know I didn't write any of this to hurt anyone here; but only because I have been hurt and I had to make my feelings known in the matter. (Perhaps some of the sisters have not consciously ignored me, but I really don't know. To any with whom this may be the case, my apologies.) Take care, and be well, everyone.
Love to all family, everywhere.
Anna
PS: If anyone wishes to comment on this blog, they are still always welcome, but I probably won't be doing much commenting on other blogs. Not for now, anyway. A.
